And So It Begins...............Again

So I finished all 25 radiation treatments and was looking forward to some time off from treatments, but the monday after my last treatment I had an appointment with one of the transplant doctors at City of Hope at Good Samaritan Hospital.  I knew that it might be a possibility that I would need a bone marrow/stem cell transplant so I was okay with going and talking to her.  So my mom and I go and talk to her and she says she wants to start the process of doing the transplant right away, and I'm just like......................fuck...................................there were a bunch of things I wanted to do in the next couple months and with what she said, the whole thing will take like four months till I'm back to normal.  So that means I'm probably gonna miss Nine Inch Nails' last tour for a long time, band practice is gonna take a big hit and I really don't get a break from treatment.  So today is when all the stuff starts, I go in to Banner Desert today and tomorrow I'll get a bone marrow test and then a round of chemo.  I'll be in the hospital 4 or 5 days and then I'll have to get a shot everyday for like 10 days and after that they'll hook me up to a machine, filter out my stem cells and then freeze them.  After that I'll go to Good Sam and start another chemo that will kill everything in my body.  Then they'll reintroduce the stem cells and then we just wait till they make me healthy again.  I'll be at Good Sam for a month probably.  The reason we're doing this is not because the radiation didn't work, it did I think I mean I feel better after it, but because my doctors feel it is the best chance for us to get the cancer for good and have it never come back.  So that is what is going on, I'll keep you all updated as much as I can!!!!